| My Life and Rape.... | ||||||||||||||||||||
| My Introduction All About Me......... | When I was 7.... | |||||||||||||||||||
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Hello this page is for everygirl and boy who has ever been abused, while growing up. Please share your stories with me, I will help you through your situation for I still need help with my own situation. I won't tell you everything and I won;t give you all the names. Thanks and remember I am hear please e-mail me and we can talk. Now about me I am now 14 almost 15 in October. I am 5'6 blonde hair green eyes 123lbs. I love sports, and friends. I have a mixed up family with my parents divorced and both remarried. I am the youngest out of us 3 girls. I have two older sisters, one 20 and the other 18. Than I have a step-brother, adn a step-sister, my fathers wife's children. My parents got a divorce when I was 11. It was really hard, for me because I am such a daddys girl and my father was the one cheating on my mother. And yet I didn't want to believe my mother that my father would do such a thing. My mother kicked my father out of our home, and I got left with my mother, and my two older sisters. I didn't like not being around my father. I would call him as much as possible and he would come get my when he had the chance. But his new girlfriend just completely took over his life. He was so in love. And she was more important to him than anything else he even told me that. But still I wasn't going to lose my father. So I visited my father as much as possible, and loved him more than anything. I stood up for him when my older sisters hated him and my mother said bad things about him. I hated everyone that said anything bad about my father. Well lets fasforward a ton. My e-mail address is [email protected] please e-mail me! |
Well to start my life story off, when I was at the age 7, I was a skinny, blonde haired girl, one day I was over at one of my guy friends house he was 8. Before this situation we were pretty good friends. Well we spent the day walking around his humongous house, and in his tree house. And several times he would show me where is father keeps his porno video's and porno magazines. I wasn't interested I just thought it was all gross naked body's I knew I wasn't allowed to see this sorta of stuff at my young age. I was still into cooties, and chasing the boys around beating them at every sport. Than we went into his bedroom and played chess. Than he told me he was going to go to the bathroom and be right back, well he came back with these handcuffs. And said that he wanted to play a game that his parents always play. So I said ok. After he tied my hands up to the bedpost. He went back to the bathroom and came out with wet hair and he was combing it saying " Hey baby, don't I look like a babe." And I said "yuck can you take these cuffs of me there starting to hurt my wrists." Than he did. I was glad. I ran home, and never went over o house again. That wasn't anything really bad, but I was put in a position that I didn't like. | |||||||||||||||||||
| My rapist step-brother, and our combined familys. All the changes..... | ||||||||||||||||||||
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Well when my father came back to live with us, and my mom moved out with her new boyfriend, my fathers wife brought her two kids. There wasn't enough room for it was only a 3 bedroom house for now 7 people 5 kids two adults. So we made changes and my middle sister couldn't take my fathers wife so she moved out all the changes we didn't like us three girls were going through all this confusion and dislike all we wanted were my parents back together. Well my sister went to live with my mother. I just had my oldest sister to take care of me. And she stayed as far away from home as possible. Everyone was busy with there own life. My oldest sister got into trouble with friends, alcohol, drugs. Well thats when things got really bad, my step-brother started stinking in my room and touching me in the night, I wouldn't go to sleep, at night I knew he was going to come in. I stopped eating, I was always skipping meals. He was bigger than me way stronger than me. But yet he was only a year older than me. But I had no strength against him. But things just got worse and worse. And I just kep't on trying to forgive him and forget that anything was ever happened.And act normal. Since my father was so happy and all. Even though I always wanted to stay up late with my father and not go to bed, but yet he wouldn't let me well and his wife, was really mean towards me , Cause we were always fighting over my father. Than finally my parents bought a bigger house and I got to have my own bedroom. Things kep't on happening, Then my fathers wife became my step-mother. And her children became my step-siblings. Terrible this isn't what I wanted but oh well and even on the night before there wedding it happened I was tempted to tell my father and break off the wedding. But then as always everything would always be my fault. I caused it all I asked for him to do that to me. I shouldn't of dressed the way I did around him. And thats surely was what I heard when I did tell. My choice was to go live with my mother, whom didn't want me. Or to keep living in the same house as him. And I wanted to be with my father. So I stayed and lived in the house. And things didn't take long to continue happening. Than all fast-forward to last month, When I tryed to forgive him. I tryed to trust him is what I did wrong. I messed up. I trusted the person that always hurts me. So what happened was.... when my father and his wife went away for a few days to Oregon. There was a party at my house a party that my step-brother, started. Well I told him I would only go and drink if h would watch out for me. Make sure that I wasn't touched by any guys. I wasn't rapeed I told him I didn't want to be raped. And he told me he loves me, and he'll be a good big brother. By now I am 14.Well the party was going well after a few beers I was so tpsey so drunk. I kep't on passing out. I am really light weight. Well and for my first time drinking. Well things got really bad, before I knew it I was being thrown around on a bed. And being gang raped by 3 different guys. back and forth. Well the night ended and I stayed up all night realizing what I got myself into what I caused. It was all my fault. I cleaned that house spot less. I found condoms all over the house, and even one broken one. So I was afraid that I was pregnant. Well I stayed away from home and stayed with my sister I told my sister what happened and made her promise to me that she wouldn't tell my father. So she kep't her promise. Well when I wouldn't come home my father worried about me. Than when he made me come home, I couldn't look my step-brother in the face since he was one of the guys that did this I didn't give any of them permission. I didn't say it was ok. Well my father finally got it out of me, since I kep't on crying and hiding in my room that night. I couldn't look my father in the eye as well as anyone else. So as soon as I told him he called the police. And now things are still going, with the police, so we still haven't gone to court yet. And I still don't know if I am going to sew them because if I do that then its like my father sewing his own wife, but I want them to pay. Thats all I have to say for now. I am putting my story on here. To help others. So please come out and tell me. I won't tell anyone. I just want to be your friend and help you get through with the hard times. Life is going to be ok. I just keep on telling myself that!!! | ||||||||||||||||||||
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